The third trimester started out good, but I have progressively gotten more tired, more uncomfortable, and more sore. Overall I feel pretty great, so I can't complain. I feel totally unprepared for labor/delivery, life post-postpartum, and motherhood. It seems like the more I read or learn, the less I know. Jon and I really feel the power of the story of Mary and Joseph, with me expecting at this time of year. We feel like we can relate on some level, and we wonder how much more inadequate they must have felt. It is amazing to think that the Savior of the world was a tiny baby once.
I love feeling little man move and I love when Jon can see and feel him. Jon reads and/or sings to our son every night. I love it so much. He is already so involved. I still am not totally sure about contractions-people always ask about this. I feel like I have had some here and there but it is hard to tell. I woke up 2 nights ago with a big/tight one and I woke Jon up to tell him. (I feel bad because I always wake him up when I feel something, I can't help it).
The most common things I hear from people is: "you're huge!" "you are all baby!" you are all belly!" you are so tiny!" (yes, I get told I am huge and tiny) "I could tell it was a boy because you are carrying low."
We had two baby showers- one at church and one at my work. Everyone has been incredibly generous and giving, we feel so loved and blessed. Of course it feels like there is still always more that we need, we have been blessed to get a HUGE amount of things for free, most of which are very gently used and in great shape!
I am still working full-time. Fortunately, we have a low number of clients right now so I have been able to work from home more than usual. I am planning to go back to work part-time (16 hours a week). I am still not sure about how it will all work out, but Jon and I feel it will be good for me to have something to do to keep from going stir-crazy, since I am used to working outside of the home. This part-time position was very unexpected and is a huge blessing. I get to stay with my same team and do my same job, just work less. It should be pretty flexible as well and I can still do my notes and emails from home. I will just have to leave for sessions with clients, meetings, and trainings.
Financially I feel nervous, since our income will be cut significantly, plus I will lose my insurance benefits when I go part-time. Not to mention we will have a whole bunch of new expenses thanks to baby. I know we will make it work but it is scary to think about. Jon and I have tried to be good with our money but of course it feels like we always are buying something. Hopefully being frugal and utilizing student loans will help us survive.
I am so nervous, excited, overwhelmed, anxious, scared, worried, happy, and everything in between. Ready or not, this boy is coming soon!!
| glad he does the lights, I hate doing the lights |
| The star is my favorite part! |
| 33 weeks and 1 day |
| the walls aren't so crazy in real life |
| Jon at 2 months (and his sister), a frame for baby, and me at 2 months |
| the walls look way better in real life |
| 35 weeks! "cutting" down our tree from Lowes |

